i hope you are starting your week off just how you wanted. i have been out of my "office" for about 4 months now. i took a very much needed break.
after ConchaCon 2019 (that was AMAZING) i really needed to take a step back and reevaluate myself & my relationships. i got consumed with using up 24 hours to the fullest, EVERYDAY. until one day i just couldn't. i finally burnt myself out. i was not okay & i didn't know how to accept that.
i needed a break. a long long break. i needed to go back to living a "normal" life. a life where I didn't spend my days rushed and in 50 different meetings, taking down a fire there, and one over here, and one in the back. i was always too busy to go to a family event, too busy to hang out with my best friend, too busy to go on a date with my own husband.
i woke up.
what is breakfast?? coffee? ok.
work.. another work fire.
call my husband.
prep for next day.
try to cook dinner.
plan out ig feed.
"come to bed" - husband
"almost done" - me
2am: OH NO.
im almost done. let me just finish.
go to bed.
my day was completely filled. not a bad thing, not with bad things. just a bad balance.
i gained weight. lots of weight. i took on a new responsibility that was beyond me that changed my life. i found out i was in debt. i was frustrated all the time, i was too busy to get "depressed" in my mind. but i was. i was not happy with me. i was not happy with how i was performing as a wife, friend, a family member or as myself.
so i started to focus on myself.
i started drinking water & going to the gym.
i only read work emails at work.
i cleaned out my office & closet.
i started focusing on my husband & my puppy.
i reconnected with old friends.
i started to journal. it's helped me a lot.
my new obsession is my planner.
i am moving in a few weeks too.
i am not ready to re-open my shop yet. i am on a hunt for an assistant so i don't feel overwhelmed. but when i do, be ready. i've been thinking of & sketching some pretty amazing things.